Memories

The memories hurt.
From that day.
Lying in the dirt.
Praying the pain would go away.
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You hit mom.
Then hit me.
I tried to remain calm.
But I was one year over three.
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I remember the screaming.
My sisters rushing to take me away.
I see this in my dreams.
I remember that day.
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But I'm alot older now.
I'm almost sixteen.
And Ive made a vow.
That is now serene.
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I'm alot bigger these days.
And your still the same.
Your thoughts are a daze.
Hidden in your own shame.
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But I wont hit you dad.
I wont do what you did to me.
No matter how mad.
Only death will set you free.
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I'll witness your old age.
Remind you of the pain Ive had.
You'll see my rage.
You'll still be my dad.
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I'll show you these rhymes.
About what you did to me.
Remind you of all the times.
And make you see.
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I was young then.
And I'm still young today.
But I was much smaller that day in the den.
Trust me dad, you'll pay.
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Ive witnessed your hate.
I'm constantly reminded each day.
You think you regret now, just wait.
Until your old, and gray.
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I've dealt with my reality.
And mended my sores.
I know the limits of my mentality.
But do you know yours?

Please vote/comment this took a long time to write. I put alot into it.
(c) 2005 JP