Goodbye

~!~! I know its kinda long but plz read all of it, I would really appreciate it !~!~

"Goodbye"

Today was the day we've all expected
When you finally decided to go.
You were a fighter up until the very end
But could no longer hold on, I know.

Your body was so weak;
Your skin became so pail
It became harder for you to breathe;
You were just so very frail.

Throughout the years
You were in so much pain
And these last few months
You had nothing left to gain.

I know you're in a better place now
For I feel it in my heart.
Of course, there's a smile on your face
But it's still tearing me apart.

I know you want no one to grieve
But it's hard for me to do so
When all I'm left with are questions
Like, why did you have to go?

Did you know how much I love you?
Why did I not get to say goodbye?
Why am I left with all this pain?
Why do I constantly cry?

The tears are now uncontrollable
As these questions fill my head
But above all else I think to myself
"There is no way she is dead!"

I want to wrap my arms around you
And say I love you one last time
Maybe then this wouldn't be so hard
And I could get it off my mind.

Although we were never really close
You still had a great space in my heart
And even though you are gone now
From that space you shall never part.

I'm sorry if the love I have for you
Was something you really didn't know
But I do love you and always will
It was just hard for me to show.

I would have given up more time
If I had known I had but a few days
Given you so much more than before
And show I cared in so many ways.

Although you're not here in sight now
You'll be with me day by day
For the memories I have of you
Can't possibly fade away.

I'll close my eyes and think back
On great, silly moments that I love
When you'd sing me silly little songs
Such as"What little boys are made of!!"

Of course, to many, silly songs
Would not be such a great deal
But silly songs are a big part of me
I love how they make me feel.

Amoung all these wonderful memories
I'll take a few wishes along with me
And carry them close to my heart
For all eternity.

So now I have nothing more to say
Except I'll miss you and goodbye
I'll try my best to be brave
And try not to cry.

~!~! Dedicated to my grandma who just passed away yesterday. !~!~