Constant reminder

*not very good.. but i did try..haha*

you\'re constantly reminding me of my past,
and all i used to be..
id change who i\'ve become if possible,
but it\'s difficult you see.

it feels like it was just yesterday,
when i fell a little deeper..
when things got worse..when things got bad.. when i got weaker..

it\'s hard for me to say, that i hate the person you are..
because i\'ve become that person too..
and hope just seems too far.

i feel so broken.. so guilty
and so full of shame..
it\'s hard to understand, but i should get the blame.

my smile is getting weaker and my commitment to depression is becoming stonger..
im not ready to be saved yet..
i think ill stay a little longer.

i\'ve cried more tears for you..
more than you;ll ever show..
i\'ve felt more emotion..
more than ill ever show..

the mask iv been wearing for all these years,
is slowly shredding..
slowly revealing my fears.

but i will not give up on happiness,
because i know that it exists..
it exists in a way you\'ll never know..
in a way im willing to risk.

-t a m a R a-