Circle of life

I'm a mess
my life
a roller coaster
up and down
happy
then sad
alive
then dead
i want to rip up my heart for eternity so i won't get motion sickness from this ride that i call life
yes, rip it up
and while you're at it
cut my eyes away, so i cannot see the love around me that i will never hold

leave me here
and when i'm gone
i don't want your pity, either
i've done enough to harm you

i can dry my tears
and someone can make me laugh, smile
and everything can seem so right
but once they leave,
and i am alone for a while
the pain comes back
i hope it is never here to stay

someone, please
i need someone to be here forever
i need true love
someone, please
just hold my hand while i ride
this roller coaster i call life
someone? can you hear me?
maybe no one ever will...

i may never find someone to hold me, love me
and this brings me pain
but it will not kill me
never will
love, then pain, then love, then pain
... the circle of life
but i will always be here
as long as i always hold onto my rose
i keep it with me all the time
in my pocket, in my mind, and in my heart
this wonderful, beautiful rose
thank you, my flower girl
for being the friend that i truly need

i'm a mess
a manic depressant, perhaps
a roller coaster
up and down
happy
then sad
alive
then dead...
there may be no one to hold my hand
but i will hold on to my rose
will hold it tight
for as long as i shall live