Grieving

Why is it so hard?
Why does it take so long?
I wish it would just be over!
Why do I cry?
There's no use!
Crying doesn't solve anything.
But, I do it so often.
No one understands,
they just don't get how I feel,
or what I still go through.
I have memories that haunt me,
of that day.
I remember it so vividly.
Its scares me!
Tell me, why is grieving so hard?
Please tell me!