What Am I Doing?

What am I doing
Here on earth?
I'm still trying to find
What am I worth

I gave in again
Into that deadly sin
I pushed that knife down
Deep into my skin

I've lost all things
That I love
I just want to leave
And go to God above

Feeling so useless
I just sit and cry
While everyone else
Just walks on by

No one understands
How I want to die
I never want to shed a tear
I never want to cry

What am I doing
Here on earth?
I'm still trying to find
What am I worth

**I wrote this when I was so confused and crying so that's why it's not very good, but I would appreciate it if anyone comments or votes on it**