Always on My Mind

Nothing seems right any more.

It's as if the world is against me.

People say they are my friends,

But they aren't.

They always end up backstabbing me.

And boyfriends end up breaking my heart

In one way or another.

I'm all alone or at least,

It feels that way.

Yea you can say you're by my side.

But you're not.

You have no clue on what I'm going through.

True you can say,

I know how you feel
or

I'm sorry.

But you have no clue,

Nor will you ever.

And you're just saying sorry out of pity.

So much stuff has been happening to me.

Yet you tell me not to worry?

How can I not when it's always on my mind?

You probably never lost a friend

That shot himself.

Which may have and may have not been an accident.

It hurts me so bad.

I try not to let it show.

I know I should let it go

But I can't.

It's always on my mind.