Disappear

Lately waking up and starting my day has become a dread,
Trying to make everyone happy is starting to take its toll.
Why cant I just be happy with what I have right now,
My life is starting to take on a totally different roll.
Itâ??s like Iâ??m drowning inmy own love,
Every breath I try to take feels like its my last.
Everyone around me is starting to disappear,
My life is flashing before me and its going so fast.
I want everything to be like itâ??s supposed to be, NORMAL,
But who is to say what is normal, because I donâ??t know.
The light in my eyes is fading and I feel so lost,
It feels as if everything I do now I have to put on a show.
I canâ??t be myself without trying to be something Iâ??m not,
Will someone ever accept me for who I am and what I stand for?
I canâ??t take being another shadow on your wall,
Take away all my pain and open another door.
Reality has started to click in my eyes,
But I canâ??t stand to se the look of disappointment on your face.
Am I such a disgrace that you canâ??t take it anymore,
You have already found someone to take my place.