Screw Up

I feel like I am spinning in circles,
Never accomplishing anything.
And when I feel like I do,
You are there to crush my dreams.
Of all the people I'd never have thought you,
The person I looked up to growin up.
You tear me apart day by day,
Now all I feel like is a screw-up.
You are suppose to be my rock,
Never allowing me to feel like this.
How can you make my world turn upside down,
All I can do now is deal with you with a clenched fist.
It hurts so bad knowing I try so hard,
I wish you knew that I do it all for you.
I can't take that look in your eyes anymore,
Day by day I wonder what the hell I need to do.
All I want is for you to be happy,
Happy with what you got.
Not worry about what you don't,
You are starting to rip us all apart.
I love you with every breath I take,
Even when I don't know how to take it.
I wish you knew what I would do for you,
But you don't even give me the chance to make it!