Inside Reality

What you don't know
And you can't see
Is the inner part of me.
Sometimes down
mainly frowning
bottled emotions
mixing potions
fears and laughter
tears
and hatred
broken heart
torn apart
memories replay
about stupid days
loss and pain
a lot I've gained
loving
caring
hurt and daring
big black hole
tougher soul
lonely and confused
choices that I choose
thoughts of death
slitting wrists
big fat myths
cold feet
lack of sleep
not okay
nothing to say
evil voices
loudnoises
sometimes glad
mainly sad
profanity
insanity
attempts to suicide
that I cannot hide
popping pills and drinking boose
things that I choose
getting high
just to get by
going crazy
minds all hazy
all this locked up tight
in one body
for most of you this
is out of sight.