Not Part of the Deal

I thought I knew you well
Once again I was deceived,
You said it was forever
My side you'd never leave.

The day I gave my life to you
A drastic change occured,
You started growing distant
And abusing me with words.

I'd rather that you hit me
Than make me feel this way,
Physical pain I could endure
But new scars I gain each day.

I sit here in silence
And watch you live your life,
I hold no place in your heart
I'm just your trophy wife.

You go behind my back
And then you tell me lies,
I don't know how you do it
When you can look me in the eyes.

I'm really not as stupid
As I pretend to be,
I'm really not that blind
Because through you I can see.

I won't sacrifice my life
For a love that's not even real,
I won't let you mistreat me so
That wasn't in the deal.

I gave my heart to you
And I don't want it back,
Hold it close and keep it safe
My bags I'll have to pack.

I hope you understand
That I really don't want to leave,
But that's my only option
I truly do believe.

So goodbye my love
I hope life treats you kind,
That you find what you're looking for
And some day peace of mind.

I wrote this about my friend, portraying the story from her point of view...I hope I did her justice.