XxFive MonthsxX

Your baby girl just turned five months today
Oh how i miss you
My days so long and nights so hard
I really hope your proud of me

Everyone tells me its not my fault your gone
But i can't help but think it is my fault
I was the person that made you walk out
Times are getting hard, but i won't give up

Because of our daughter. Shes showed me
That there is beauty in this world
She gives me a reason to fight and to keep going
But then i wonder, why am i trying so hard

What if like everything else in my life
Everything I've worked so hard for just falls apart
Instead of having a real job what if i went back to dealin in the streets
It makes more money, then there'd be no need for school

But having Brittany made me realize
I can't act like i use to
Shes got to have a REAL mother, the only thing i can give her
Thats all she has is me and shes all i got

Its hard staying in school, i miss one more day I'm in jail.
I gotta keep a real job now too.
To pay for her day care to pay for food rent and all the other bills.

I'm not complaining, cause i do know i could have it worse
I'm just saying never in my life have i had it my way
for once i wish things would look up for me

But for now....times aren't at all looking up
but like I've done for so long
I'll wake up put my fake smile on
and face thisl world one more day at a time

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