Theres no one here but me

It feels my life is fading away,
this years gone by so fast,
memories, just reminders of a better day,
proof that nothing lasts,
i know life has changed me so much,
I'm not the same person i used to be,
when i look back through this last year,
it just doesn't seem to be me,
i know i was only blinded by forever,
every time i looked into his eyes,
i truly believed we would be happy forever,
just like i believed all those lies,
the dreams i once had have slipped away,
they're no longer giving me hope,
Ive lost so many loved ones this year,
i no longer think i can cope,
all it takes is one minute,
to change your life forever,
to take away those special bonds,
that binds love together,
one day your life is perfect,
everything goes your way,
then your world crashes down around you,
and you know it'll never be the same,
everything happens for a reason,
but how can that be so?
They didnt do anything wrong,
Why did they have to go?
I have no one left to guide me,
Through this world, so full of lies,
All iIveleft are these memories,
And these unsaid goodbyes,
Its so tempting to give up now,
And go wherever you are,
But I know that would upset you all,
So I must get through this somehow,
My mother, father and my little brother,
All lost,
It must be a mistake,
I try to recall those following months,
As I fade away and my heart breaks,
So you see theres nothing to keep me here,
I have no purpose in life,
I could easily end all this suffering,
On the blade of this knife,
But I know I must go on,
Endless pain and loneliness,
I know I need to be strong,
And live through all this pain,
In the hope that ill get through this life,
So I can see my family again,