1st time

Sit there, stare at the sky
Don't know why but start to cry
Maybe because you don't know if he cares
He's not here to ask and he's so unaware
Of the struggle that's going on inside your head
"If he's not in my life then I'm better off dead"
When you've spent so much time just to keep it together
When all that you want is to be with him forever
But right here and now you don't know if its fine
Or if your hearts being broken for the 1st time