In love with you

I was thinking about
all that we've been through
i couldn't help but ask myself
am i still in love with you?

i thought of all the pain
the sleepless nights and tears
i thought of all the lies you told
and how you confirmed my worst of fears

did you ever really love me
or was it all just lies
did i ever see the real you
or only your disguise

but then i thought that maybe it was true
maybe your love was for real
i only wish i could know now
that exact way that you feel

i thought of how you held me
and the way we used to touch
i thought of how happy i was
and how i long for those days so much

i thought of how you kissed me
all the secret moments that we shared
i miss you so much it hurts so bad
i only wish that you still cared

but thats the thing you don't care
and probably never will again
i guess ill have to settle with
being just a friend

but just a friend is killing me
because i want so much more
i want you to love me
the same way you did before

then i started to cry
because i knew that it was true
the answer to my question was
yes..I'm still in love with you..