With or Without You

The lights down low, music low;
and i sit here. I sit thinking.
I wonder if you even know...
the things you put me through.

These walls have heard it all,
seen the best of highs and springs.
But mostly the hardest of falls,
and recently they've been over you.

Is all the hurt you cause purposely?
And if so, i ask myself this...
What did i do? Maybe i should leave,
forget all the thoughts of me and you.

But then again, what if its not?
Could you not see it in my eyes?
So i now have to take this into thought...
you don't realize the hell you put me through.

Either way i burn with pain,
so either way i loose.
This isn't some little game,
in which the solution i choose.

When i think of your smile,
and the taste of your kiss...
It makes some pain worth while,
almost like a bliss.

However when i see your eyes,
and share a stare with you...
its all of this i despise.
And i wish it could be through.

So like i said, I'll repeat it again,
Either way i loose.
There is no possible way, i can win;
Now my decision is something new.

I hurt when i see you; i hurt when i don't.
Seems i don't even want to be here.
So cry over you, i definitely wont,
Because I'll end my life with you.

For you did not hold the blade,
you still don't even know.
But it was you that made
me let this innocent life go.