Blasted and barren landscape surrounding my heart. Leaving me breathless and torn apart. Stranded and alone on this isle of pain. Agony encroaching and driving me insane. Trying to find a way to cope. Seeking to find a way to cling to hope. Loneliness and despair like a second skin. Anger and hatred a life lived in sin. Outcast from the work, shunned by all. Left alone, no friends, no family, alone I fall. Never sharing, just enduring. Always hurting, never imploring. Lost, afraid, lonely, in a daze. Trying so hard to leave this maze. I want out, free to live. I want out, to share the love I have to give.But at the slightest hurt to my heart, I run and hide and have to restart. I'm weak and scared, lost to the one. I'm crying inside and I want to run. She tells me to move on, but if she could feel what I felt she'd know that would be wrong. Always present in my mind. A love like hers I'll never find. She tells me I've so much to give and I deserve the best. But I hold her love sacred above the rest. My heart aches when I hear her voice. But when I'm without her I've no choice. So I hold her dear, in my dreams that I have where she is near. I hold her in my arms and share my fears. She holds me back and kisses away my tears. And it hurts so bad when reality kicks in. I look at this love, this game, this life and I can't win. I try hard to forget how I feel, to close off my heart so it can heal So I cower and hide and burn myself out. Enduring my heartache without a shout.
