Fighting Temptations

As I am writing this poem,
I am shaking, crying, totally in fear,
I hate him... I no longer want to see him,
My heads mixed up, I'm so very near...

But I WILL pull through,
He will no longer bring me down,
Although I am feeling this urge, as on cue,
The only thing he can do now is make me frown.

This feeling is testing my strengths,
The strengths of my feelings and mind,
This is the reason hense,
Why I'm feeling worried, but I promised, I have signed.

I have promised to my friends,
I mean to every single one,
That I will do it never again,
So although I'm feeling low he hasn't won,

I'm going to do this,
For I know I have you all,
I am no longer going to scar my wrist,
For I have a reason not to fall,

I now know I have faith,
It may not be from inside me,
But I know I am safe,
For it is my friends who truly believe in me.

This poem is now at the end,
And I feel strong and calm,
It took 30minutes to fight the urge of my fiend,
But now I have the confidence not to self harm,

*^* That is thanks to each and every one of my friends *^*