So many times

So many times
I made a mistake
That I couldn't take back.

So many times
I wish I didn't
have the life that I have.

So many times
I wished to help you
But there's nothing I could do.

So many times
I wished to die
but the courage didn't come.

So many times
I wished to tell you
just how much you meant to me.

So many times,
I regretted
not telling you enough
before my life slipped away,
like sand between my fingers...