I sit staring at my wall,
Wondering what stops me from ending this,
Ive been in this room for hours,
Alone with no one around,
Why do I feel this way?
When I know I have friends,
But it feels like I have no one that even cares,
When everyone would just say,
That I care for you so much,
But those are just words and they do not mean a thing to me,
Even though when you see me,
I have a smile on my face,
I just use it to make you happy,
To make you feel like I am ok,
But now that I think,
I realize it is becoming easier to mask my true feelings,
Now I think about it,
I hope I will become good enough,
To even fool myself.
