Again I'm lying here all alone. No one by my side. no one to hold. my ceiling becoming my main focus. its all there is. so many thoughts, but yet i have no idea what I'm thinking. i have to close my eyes to feel free. for when i close my eyes I'm living in my own little world. Everything is beautiful and perfect. theres no lies, tears, or pain. only happiness and joy. its there that I'm happy. its there that you hold me. you look into my eyes and tell me you love me. Your there by my side showing me the way. never letting go. but again i have to open my eyes. your gone, leaving me hear with nothing. all i have is this lonely feeling in my soul, eating me whole. voices telling me its never going to change. telling me ill always feel this emptiness inside. no one to reach out to. no one to keep me safe. i have me and reality.
