Take the pain away

*This might be long, but its my feelings...read if you want to*

Sitting here, thinking of you.
Imagining if you were still here.
You still are, in some ways.
But its not the same.
There is something everyday,
that makes me think of you.
I just want to break down and cry
or try and divert my attention,
and think of something else.
Everyday my brother reminds me,
you are not here with us.
When I look at him,
at his profile I notice something.
I see someone different,
I don't see my brother now,
I see my brother with all these worries.
He worries what others think of him.
Will they notice his limp?
Will they make fun of his voice?
Or will they try and look into his eyes;
and see something different about them?
Sometimes I just wish his accident never happened;
but I can't change the past.
It's so hard to see him struggle everyday.
If only I could take all his pain away,
that might take a little more pain from me.