Out-Sider

I try to fit in,
doing the things you want me to do.

I try to fit in,
feeling sad yet hiding it from you.

I try to smile,
laughing as i spend my time with you.

I try to smile,
yet i still feel this pain no matter what we do.

I try to play,
knowing this is what you want me to do.

I try to play,
Trying to do what you want me to do.

I try not to die,
knowing it would hurt you.

I try not to die,
but this knife is all i need, it will have to do.