Alone In A Crowd

To have thousands of people around you,
and never feel more alone.
No one to talk to.
No shoulder to cry on.
Not even a friend to hear you speak.

How is it possible?
I go through it everyday.
Although no one knows it,
I never felt more alone.
So frustrated and annoyed.
To know and want so much.
But to share and have so little.

The only thing that keeps me going.
Is my friends back at home.
And the need for them and my family
not to be alone.

I doubt things will ever change.
Though change is all I ever longed for.
But my fear and doubt of change
doesn't over power my hope,
or the knowledge of the possibility
of having it.