Torn Heart

My heart is warped from patches
band aids here and there
it's broken, beat, and battered
and wore out from wear.

So many scars and scratches
just so much pain
I put so much into living
but what have I to gain?

I try to fix it every time
but the pain is more than I can bare
so sometimes I have to self destruct
just to know I'm there.

The after effects are hideous
there's nothing I can't hide
but only from everyone else
because I hurt inside.

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