Never

I cry why? i cut, why?
i live, why? i want to die, why?
nothing changes, it all remains the same
the pain stays, it never leaves
i will never be able to hold anything
i hate it, all of it, why?
i bleed, why? i hate, why?
nothing matters, nobody cares
the image will remain in my head forever
i will never be as happy as before, anymore
i stress, why? i fake, why?
i am alone, why? i stumble, why?
nothing will be the same, ever.
the hate will anger me for days on in
i will never be able to stop the shame