XxI only wish....xX

This is me, this all i will ever be
Here i am, white trash, happy i admitted it
What you've told me for so long
Looking in the mirror i hate who i see

I hate the person I've became
everything about me from head to toe
I hate it, i hate every ounce of blood rushing threw my body
I hate every single thought racing threw my mind

You just don't understand i do not want to be this person
I'm so fake i pretend everything is ok
Just to please everyone, i smile so people will stop asking questions
Anger, depression, and all other emotions i hide

I'm only 16, i feel like I'm 32
A baby, no husband... not even a man to call mine
and for all i know i can end up in jail once again
my life just seems to rush on by me

While i sit here, and watch it slowly fade away
The past I've lived, I'm not proud of but its there and not going away
and here i am paying for it now
I'm not sorry, i don't regret, But i only wish....i could be different