Having a mother telling u your fat

Ever since I can remember
I have been so concious about my weight
I would lie to everyone around me
saying I had just ate

Having a mother
telling you your fat your whole life
makes you crazy
wanting that knife

O yes that cutco blade
that same familiar feeling
days pass
you see them healing

How stupid am I
throwing up for eating a grape
starving for damn perfection
wanting that model shape

Dying
Starving
Wanting
Perfection