A choice

Five years and counting.
When will it ever end??
I'm addicted to the enemy,
Yet the enemy is sometimes a friend.
I deceive myself and others,
by the truth behind my eyes.
The anguish of entrapment,
painful silent cries.
They that know choose ignorance,
its much easier than facing.
My demons and entangled thoughts,
a mind forever racing.
Continual damage and actions,
an identical unwritten script.
Calloused hands and fingers,
a throat and stomach ripped.
The painful life I'm caged in forever,
will it ever end??
Only when i release the addiction,
and become my own best friend...