With every beat
Brings a pinch of pain
It's stuck on repeat
And it's making me insane
It's my fault, i take blame
I was too crazy in the past
I couldn't play the game
I always had to have a blast
I took too many pills
I had too much to drink
I wanted too many thrills
I didn't have time to even think
I took 13 pills already
Give me a few more
Come on, my pace is steady
I don't have a reason to live for...
Why did i wake up the morning after
I think i should have been dead
It was just a disaster
Roaring through my thick head
Honestly, I've done this again
I didn't learn my lesson
I wanted my life to end!
I had so much bad aggression!!
I'm depressed, where's the bottle?
I'm taking it shot by shot
I'm riding this pain full-throttle
And I'm giving all that i got
3/4 of the whiskey bottle is gone
I'm passed out on the floor
Was this right or wrong?
Why is my heart slowing down for?
3 in the morning, i finally awoke
this was just another stupid thing
everything inside of me broke
I'm holding on by a string!
Is there something in my nose?
Yeah, and it looks white
I turned to watch another door close
Nothing feels alright...
please don't touch me
I'm not that out of my mind
sex is something I'm not wanting
so can i please put this on rewind
Nasty hands on my drunk face
Everything just turns to cold
You're smiling? i need to get out of this place...
Because i can't stay at home
Problems surround me
The white flag is coming up
Because I'm too weak to see
And I'm too shaky to step-up
Anything hot, pressed against my skin
It bubbles and scars...REPEAT
And suicide thoughts bring out the demon within
And cutting causes another self-esteem defeat
Broken glass, a razor, a knife
Leaving lines of red
Trying to take MY OWN life
Trying to live life dead
I'm alone...
My friends are dying
So is this place i call home...
I wish i could say i was lying
People who i grew to love
They helped raise me...
They already rose above
From suicide, accidents, or just aging
My parents don't love me
My gram had to walk away
My family, i don't really see
But my friends want me to stay
So now what do i do?
Should i just live in regret?
Or get something to hold on to
And live and try to forget?
I WANT TO BE HERE, GOD
I don't want to die at a young age
If you hear me, just give me a nod
Please erase life's torn page
Erase the pain i have in my heart
Erase the damage i have done
Forgive me for that I've fallen apart
And didn't listen to anyone
