Inside/outside Me

I'm just like any other person who gets confused
but then on the other hand I can get easily focused
Inside of me my big organ the liver is failing, it's unhealthy
But people would not know from the outside I look healthy

much to your surprise the feelings I have felt are sad
but I hide the sadness and pretend I'm always glad
you would not know but I used to have a friend the blade
I used it because I felt afraid and scared but now I'm not afraid

with all the people I live with and talk to I would be alone
but sometimes it feels like I am alone all in my little zone
I always think of the future and what may happen in life
I never want to get married but you'll never know I maybe a wife

but then I always look in the past and think where might I be
Right now I'm here living my life thinking if i could ever flee
If I could run away and hide my sorrows and wait till time passes
even though I might not be here for the important classes