MakeUp Bag

Let me put my make up on.
the eyeshadow so yellow.
the deep color of the blush.
let me take my breath away.
let me make sure you'll stay.

putting my black eyeliner on.
so dark and sensationally scared.
let me put the mascara on.
so thick and mighty.

let me show you something more.
i don't need to be pretty, full of makeup.
but I'll show you something more.
I'll show you what made me want you.

I'll take my coat off.
twist my arm over.
and show you my cut wrists.
I'll make you watch them bleed.
they could never stop.
i won't let it.

I'll show you my razor.
where i keep it.
it's full of blood.
the deep cuts of it.
some of it is missing.
some of it is in my skin.

deep inside of me.
no, I'm not crying.
why? because it doesn't hurt.
how come? because you broke me into two.
nothing hurts anymore.
so I'll lock up the door.
so you won't take the razor away.

i will tell you this i will always stay.
i won't be in heaven next year.
i will be going to our junior prom.
i will kiss you in the night sky.
i will tell you i love you forever.

but there's no band aids to help.
there's no cover up to heal.
there's nothing here to make me.
make me heal what so ever.
but I'm telling you I'm not.
I'm not going to heaven.

well i guess i lied to you again.
i guess you called me a cutter.
a cutter who is a who.re.
I'll cut myself inside of me.
I'll take the knife.
go up inside of me.
and cut me off.

I'm going to he.ll not heaven.
do you think i was that sweet??
i don't think so.
so I'll leave here.
i don't care how much this sucks.
I'll leave it like this.
figure out the rest.