Betrayer

I look at the blank page
And I don't know what to write
Because I feel that you've betrayed me
You broke my heart that night

I don't know why I think this
It comes straight from my heart
Because I thought that you also loved me
But we'll always be apart.

And so I need to tell myself
That we shall never be
And I feel a sense of deja  vu
About this "you and me"

Looking back on poetry
I felt all this before
All of this confusion
Now my cards are on the floor

Last time I ignored it
I knew it couldn't be
But this time it's much deeper
I wish that you could see

But never will I tell you
I'm so weak deep down inside
And so instead I cry here
And all my feelings hide

I linger in this pretence
And hide in my disguise
Just promise me you'll never
Look deep within my eyes

Because faces are so malleable
And easy to conceal
But within my eyes there lingers
How I really feel

But I'll never confess
Any of this to you
I pray I never slip up
And declare my love for you.

But you can help my cause now
And shun me from your sight
To stop these deep cut feelings
And betray me every night.