Feel

If only I could feel.
Just once open up my heart and love
But I'm so cold inside.
Frozen inside.

I built a wall around myself
To keep the pain away
But it's become so deep now
Nothing will touch me.

You ask me how I feel
And I shrug and turn from you
The reality is I feel nothing
I wish I could tell you the truth.

Everyday gets harder,
I get colder and darker
And I long too much to feel something
Anything.
I will do anything, just to feel.

So I pick up the blade
And score across my skin
Scratch until I bleed
Just to prove that I'm still real.

At least when I'm alone
And I'm bleeding fresh and hot
I'm safe in the thought that
I can still make myself feel.