Could have been

Could have been

im always smiling , laughing
i am the happiest person ever
everything is going right
and i have the best family a person
could have

thats what they believe,
instead of smiling im wanting to cry
instead of laughing im screaming for help
everything isn't going right
every little thing i do is wrong
i don't even no what is right
and the best family..
well u couldn't get any more worst

i have a broken soul that needs answers
answers for why i need to be alive
i have a broken family
that needs to love each other more
no more hitting or yelling
i guess these are just wishes i have
that cant come true

i cant take this anymore
I'm becoming someone i don't even no
I'm becoming what they want me to be
i just want to run away and never come back
cut until i cant
and maybe if i really cant take it kill myself
if only i could speak of how i feel
people might understand

but they wont il take this razor continues cuts
until i cant anymore
think of the times things were right and
when i was someone i wanted to be
and my family loved each other
i guess this is the end
fall onto the floor and close my eyes slowly
dreaming of a life that could have been