He\'s gone

He was the love of my life. we'd been through so much together.
he's gone now. out of town, out of my life, he's loved me as i him. i think about him all the time. i wish i could go back to that day. i remember the look in his eyes when we said goodbye. we hugged but, i never wanted to let him go. i wanted him to stay in my arms forever & always. I'll always be here for him...waiting for him. knowing he'll never return. it hurts. he's still with me in my dreams. but, dreams aren't real. i wish they were. he's gone forever.
everything i do, say, look at, reminds me of him. it's hard to wake up knowing he's not here. it kills me from the inside out. the pain, the memories. sometimes i can still feel the touch of his arms around me, holding me. i thought we'd last forever.
but now he's gone.........& I'm dying inside.

** this is for Sean w. i love you babe, & i miss you**