Clueless this time

A teenage girl started to tell
Her life story of a living hell
You could see the pain fill up her eyes
As the tears fell, her heart unties

She's completely worn out
From the life she's telling them about
She's waiting for someone to care
But she's wishing on a star that isn't there

She wants to run away
She covers her mouth so she doesn't have to say
That she wants to go to the past
And make more scars to last

She's so confused, what is she saying?
Nothing works, no use in praying
She wants to do drugs like she use to
But then she doesn't know what to do

She then lowered her jeans
And showed her own seams
Parallel lines scratched into her skin
She doesn't know where to begin

"The pain... is that an excuse?
Or what am i saying... there is no use...
My mind is lost and I'm so confused
Sometimes I'm happy or i feel so used"

"I try so hard to clear my head
From these thoughts telling me to be dead!
And I'm afraid to let this all out
Because fighting this is what I'm scared about"

"Nobody will believe me in what i say
Who could help me live today?
I can't scare my friends with what i know...
Too much confidence has started to grow"

....

So now I'm the girl & I'm lost
I'm finding mistakes and counting the cost
I don't know where to go from here
Which road should i turn on to steer?

I'll keep it inside, I'll keep it on a low
Because if i fake a smile then it is hard to show
That i hate myself and I'm hurting myself again
And i am clueless on how to put this to an end