So your at it again.
i see the little mark on your wrist.
it hurts for me to see.
you tell me it's because of that.
family, ex-friends, life, home.
i try to tell you it's stupid.
but i can't stop it anymore.
i can't tell you everything.
because i have cut myself to.
i want you to stop though.
I'll still tell you what i should be learning.
the tears you pulled off today.
made me hurt so much inside.
yeah, you lost a best friend.
but you also started to cut again.
i told you not to.
i have wrote the first poem about you.
it made you stop and realized.
but now your at it again.
i think my words are worthless now.
my heart is gone forever.
because it's broken with a promise.
i feel like cutting once again.
i want to show you how much pain you bring to me.
i want to be someone I'm not.
and let you suffer through it all.
but I'm a bigger and better friend.
a friend that is learning better.
i want to help you.
I'll do anything for you.
I'll go kill myself to keep you alive.
Hilary i love you Hun so much.
you mean the world to me.
your the one who actually cared.
remember that time.
when You, Sarah and Amanda were the only ones.
who showed up at my birthday party.
remember that day when you came to my house.
when we went into the field.
when we got my CD player and danced with the songs.
then it started to rain.
we ran like fools.
but this time around.
i see those scares.
i just can't believe a smart person.
a wonderful friend.
would do this to them selfs.
i know my words could never change your mind.
but i do want you to know.
that i am here for you no matter what.
I'm here until the day we both die.
i love you so much.
yes, i have said it before.
but no i am not lieing.
i am not taking back my words.
so I'm telling you.
that you can cut if you actually want.
but i am no matter what.
going to try to help you out.
if you want to cut.
I'll cut with you.
if you want to stop.
I'll help you threw that.
Hilary my love.
i love you like a sister.
i don't want you to cry.
from this damn poem.
words probably wouldn't help.
but you need them more then me.
your an awesome person.
i love to make you laugh.
bring out your day.
i just miss the old Hilary.
that wouldn't do this to herself.
that wouldn't make me cry.
that wouldn't make me burn.
I'm hurting more then you think.
I'm repeating myself in life.
that you are everything.
that you are one of my Friends.
no wait best friends.
so please stop hurting.
please please please.
these are my final words.
before this poem is ending.
