Stop it!

How can you do this
stop it!
stop it!
please stop the pain, the torment, the fear
make me feel alive again.
how i hate you, how i hate you!
and yet i still feel some need for you,
stop it!
stop it!
a need, a need i cant explain, it hurts to think about but this pain brings pleasure, then pain, then pleasure, then pain,
stop this torment!
stop it now!
i fear that i will one day hurt, i fear that i will one day crush you...and i will enjoy it.
i will enjoy it and feel alive again.