Peaceful yet chaotic

Alone she lay,
gone from this world,
yet her spirit to stay.

Once near,
now gone
this was my fear

A sense of peace,
in a chaotic scene
means my heart bleeds

Uncontrollably
I sob and stare numb,
wishing from this scene I could flee

Yet something kept me here,
half against my will,
but I could feel her near

Ever close
yet always far away,
dead because of her over-dose.