Confusion

Lost in confusion, seemingly spinning,
I don't understand how it got this bad.
It seems life;s a game and I'm never winning,
This is the only control I have ever had.
Slowly fading, falling apart,
This hunger is eating at me soul.
My chest is empty, there's a scar on my heart,
This is shattering my world yet making me whole.
Torn between what's right and wrong,
Who do I lesten to? Where do I go?
Do I listen to Ana's sweet hunger song?
Or my friends and family who I love and know.
Sinking deeper, please pull me out,
Save me from my reflection.
They say this a thing they know nothing about,
They don't understand my cry for perfection.
They don't understand I'm as confused as they are,
They ask me to explain but I am unable.
I am one in a milion fallen stars,
Slowly growing weaker, barely stable.
This thing I believe is my best friend,
This thing in my head taking over me.
Will this fight for perfection ever end?
Is happiness a thing I will ever see?
Taking over my life and mind,
Destroying everything I ever believed in.
It seems this is a death wish I have signed,
I have committed a terrible sin.
Tearing my soul, black falling tears,
Feeling so helpless and alone.
"Ana please save me from my fears,"
But she's slowly fading; I'll soon be on my own.