Not the person you're supposed to be

I see you everyday of my life,
and you act like everythings fine
I see you and you act like
the younger years of my life didnt matter
I see you and in your eyes I can tell,
You hope more then anything I've forgotten
You try to have fun with me now
You try to play and joke with me now
But you and I both know
I dont want to come anywhere near you
I dont want to show dried tears to you
I dont want you to see the scars running deep inside me
And all over my body because of you
I'm more then sure my hate for you will last forever
I stopped shedding tears
for you and your actions,
I thought I could go on crying forever
I gave into you or so you think
But lonely loathing still lies within
I know you want us to
get on with are lives
And be a normal family,
But you're not the person I look up to,
Not the person who overly protects me,
Not the person youre supposed to be
So I cant act
like I dont hate you,
because for seven years,
You've meant nothing to me

plz comment it will mean a lot 2 me luv alwayz
X-Fallen Angel-X