Gone and I can't fix it

Why does it all happen to me,
I used to look on an outcome so differently.

But now since it happened I have changed,
I used to always be happy but now my feelings range.

I\'m disappointed that I wasn\'t always there,
Even though I really did care.

I cry when those special days go by,
Sometimes i feel like im gonna die.

I miss those days i spent with you,
I wish i could change so all would be new.

Buti have guilt that i wasnt always there,
and when i think about it my heart just rips and tears.

I truely miss you it is so true,
I really wish i could undo!
I miss you!

Grampy R.I.P

-ChRiStA