Ready to die

Deadly thoughts fill my head,
Suicide is in my dreams,
Time is working against me,
My life is ending so it seems.

Not because it has to,
Its truly what I need,
These happy thoughts I feel,
Are the ones that mislead.

I can not help the way I feel,
I cant control my heart,
All I know is things get worse,
When Im alone and were apart.

Im so sick of everything,
So ready to die,
The only thing keeping me here,
Is you and I dont know why.

I wish that I was with you,
Every second of every day,
But I know thats not possible,
And it hurts me in everyway.

Suicidal thoughts,
Haunt me everyday,
Because of everything they do,
And everything they say.

Youre the only thing,
Thats keeping me here,
Please don?t ever forget me,
Loosing you is my biggest fear.

Honestly I dont care,
What everyone else thinks,
Because youre the only one,
Who makes my heart sink.

I truly love you,
Yes I do,
And I know for a fact,
That you love me too.

But what Im about to do,
The proof is not there,
Im about to take my own life,
Because I no longer care.

I can not stand,
The way things are,
I can not stay here,
When the lights so far.

I just dont have the will,
Its no longer in my veins,
Why should I stay here,
When all I feel is pains?

I dont want a simple death,
I want everyone to see,
Just how much pain I feel,
And whats inside of me.

I bleed just like you,
Were all alike inside,
You will see Im similar,
When Im gone and have died.