Its funny

Its funny how
when theres something
wrong no one
notices ever.
I'm always smiling
thats what i do
i have my bad days
only a few see it
parents oblivious to me being in a bad mood
friends seem to
think i should always smile
and be happy
because thats how i am
so I'm use
to just not
being in a bad mood
if i am
i go somewhere else
but how can
the people who
say they know me best
never notice that
there's something wrong
am i that good at hiding it
do i not really matter
or do they just think
its one bad day
ill be fine.
well its not
my life is falling apart
slowly and painfully
and the two people
who sorta help it stay together
well I'm with one
he has no clue that
theres something bothering me
then again i cant tell him
and one well
i think hes gone
and i don't blame him
i wouldn't want to be with
someone like me
why would i
cant be with me
beacuse parents make that impossible
cant understand me
too complex
cant read me like
a book
the chapters changes every minute
so theres no hope.
yet on the other hand
I'm just me and
I'm happy being me
so i guess in reality
just ignoring the pain
will make it all go away