I lost you so everyone has to loose me

I'm sitting here all alone,
ashamed to say depressed,
i wish i was under a head stone,
instead i am so stressed.

tears of blood role down my face,
as i move the blade toward my wrist,
soon i will be in a happy place,
but unlikely will i be missed.

i miss him more than words can say,
i need him back into my arms,
everyday i use to pray,
and no longer will our hands join palms.

he left me on that cold Christmas eve,
i felt so empty so dark and numb,
the only thing i have done is grieve,
i cannot believe of what he's made me become.

day and night his name is in my head,
memories of the happiness stick,
all the time i wish i was dead,
why i don't know but I'm still love sick.

after tonight i shell not feel empty dark or numb,
no longer will i have to grieve,
i will have nothing to do with what has to come,
because soon my life i have to leave.