Here I am wishing to die wishing my heart would bleed out of my sadness.
Here I stand waiting, watching, and wondering if any body cares that I’m a live or even cares that I’m here.
Here I am laughed at, made fun of, and harassed at school.
Here I am knowing that you wish that I wouldn’t try to hurt myself or think of killing myself but that is all I can think about with how some people treat me.
Here I walk down the street wishing there was a way for me to think for a moment that every thing will be ok but it won’t be.
It never has been so why do I try to think that.
I wish you were here to cheer me up but I don’t think that will happen for a while because everything that I wish for never comes true.
Every night I sit in bed wondering what you and my friends have done that day.
Every night I cry myself to sleep wishing that the pain would disappear and that nothing ever happened.
I know you will want me to stop this nonsense
I love you and I miss you
Forever and always
