It Only Takes Once..

The life I lived
And the life no one knew
The number of sleepless nights
I was up thinking of you

The smile on my face,
Was hardly ever real
The tears in my eyes
The pain you always managed to make me feel

The hole in my heart
The slit on my wrists
Holding back words
Balled up fists

Blocking out my thoughts
Feeling down
Getting the impression
No one wants me around

Putting on an act
Just trying to deal,
What I'm left with,
The pain that I feel

It only takes once
And then there's nothing left to break
Making everything too unbarable
Another soul for God to take.