No title to this poem

Here I am,
Writing again...
Wow, god damn.
I guess I can never win...

I promised myself I wouldn't cry...
I said I would fight back...
But I'm too weak to try...
Strength is what I lack...

Why did you betray me...
I gave you my heart...
I guess we weren't meant to be...
It's too late, we've fallen apart.

Betrayal can't be forgiven...
I'm sorry, it's over.
My insanity is pain-driven...
I'll be insane...forever.

Words can't express this anger.
Tears can't show you my sorrow.
I know you love her...
Even so, I couldn't let you go.

I want to hate you...
I can't, I won't, I wouldn't...
Right now, I don't even know what to do.....
After you, I can't live, I couldn't.

Everything reminds me of you...
I hate you, but I love you even so...
It hurts to think about you...
I love you...More than you know...

It hurts me to write this....
It hurts to even look at it....
I don't want to think about it....
Every letter reminds me of you...

It's hard to hold back the tears as I write this.....
But I have to, so I can go back to my life....
I want to tell you, I wanted you to be my first kiss.
I wanted to meet you...I wanted to be your wife......

There's so much I want to say....
It's too late.....
It's over today.........

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I wrote this for a very very special person.....Please comment

-Jin