Nightmares

Why won't they stop
All these nightmares,
I want them to stop
They come at me in pairs.

I see all the things
I don't want to do,
But what scares me the most
Is who I'm doing them to.

I see myself
Chaining, torturing, murdering,
I'm hurting all my loved ones
I just can't stop crying.

I run and hide
Wanting people to leave me be,
But I can't stop from sreaming
"HELP ME"

I keep on screaming
I keep on crying,
I keep on thinking
I should be dying.

I reach behind me
And grab my knife,
I look into the blade and think
It's time to end my life.

I put the blade between my fingers
And get ready for the pain,
I close my eyes and say
"It's time to end my life."

Then I feel small arms
They wrap around my waist,
I don't want to hurt her
So I try to make haste.

She pulls me in close
She starts to cry,
Over my shoulder she tells me
"I don't want you to die."

I stop right then
And think about my life,
I know it's the right thing to do
So I drop the knife.

I turn around
And kiss her very lite,
I say to her then
"You have saved me this nite."

"Anytime"
She tells me gently,
Then she kisses me and says
"Just don't ever leave me."